why then am i here, at the end of the year? what drew me back to the much loved world of blogging. there was a rush of emotions amidst the cold foggy night in Lahore that i decided, first thing in the morning i will type something here. despite the cold, the frozen hands, the red ears and nose, the rush of emotions did not hold itself for long. it melted soon to be forgotten in the morning. i contented myself with 'burnt shadows' and leafed the pages and re read my favourite parts( the reason my brother is almost done reading it while i m still there on the same pages)
what does the new year post imply? what is one expected to write? about the successes and failures, about the trips taken or the trips postponed. prayers said deep into the night or many a times that prayers were deliberately forgotten as a secret act of rebellion against God. the year spent defining happiness or days spent being consumed by the various blues and grays. endless debates on the pathetic blame games of the politicians, international politics and their gimmicks? a look back at the year you see a horrible graffiti of war, blood, suicide bombings, terrorism, conspiracy theories, how many died on your side of the border? a year began and a year ended full of hopes and expectations, new relationships, old broken ones, a few mended, and some just there like scars waiting to be healed one day... and ya long lists of resolutions.
so what am i doing here? trying hard to write something good but that just wont come out...so i left this post, abandoned it, quit it like many things till i completely forget about it. but had to finish this one, unlike the many that are lying in the drafts unfinished...no matter if its already a new year and everyone's done with their new year posts and wishes.
a belated (but never mind) happy new year to all the readers (of this sleepy blog)
statistically 2009 was a sluggish year in terms of the posts i made here, remained absent i wonder why...but definitely more posts in OH TEN